by Carrie Arcos
Genre: Young Adult Contemporary
Published: April 15th 2014 by Simon Pulse
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Mark knows grief. Ever since the accident that killed his twin sister, Grace, the only time he feels at peace is when he visits the bridge on which she died. Comfort is fleeting, but it’s almost within reach when he’s standing on the wrong side of the suicide bars. Almost.Grace’s best friend, Hanna, says she understands what he’s going through. But she doesn’t. She can’t. It’s not just the enormity of his loss. As her twin, Mark should have known Grace as well as he knows himself. Yet when he reads her journal, it’s as if he didn’t know her at all.As a way to remember Grace, Hanna convinces Mark to complete Grace’s bucket list from her journal. Mark’s sadness, anger, and his growing feelings for Hannah threaten to overwhelm him. But Mark can’t back out. He made a promise to honor Grace—and it’s his one chance to set things right.
I haven’t told anyone about the group. I’m not sure what they’d think. I like that it’s my own thing. Maybe it’s weird to be talking to total strangers, but at the same time it makes perfect sense. They get me in a way that my parents, Hana, even Sebastian can’t.
To answer your question with another question, are we ever really whole? We’re all broken in some way. Tell anyone who wants you to get over it to go to ell, sorry for my language. Kristen died five years ago, and I wanted to kill everyone who told me I just needed time. You know what time does? It makes me older when Kristen isn’t. You know what’s the most tragic thing? Getting older than your twin. But you’re not alone. There are people here who get you. Are you coming to the LA meet-up next month? If so, I’ll see you there.
Twinless Twins hosts these meet-ups once a month in my area, and then a big conference in the summer where they talk about dealing with loss and grief and anger. I’m thinking about going. It’s also for family and friends. Maybe Hanna or Sebastian would come with me.
I write Greg back and tell him maybe.
About the author
Carrie Arcos is a National Book Award Finalist for Young People's Literature for OUT OF REACH. She lives in Los Angeles with her family.