|This sort of like a topic post except it sounds more like me thinking out loud. Which isn't always pretty. Or organized. This is me blabbing. That's why I'm calling this The Confessional.|
I usually try to start my confessional titles with "I have a confession" but it's not appropriate in this case. I have to get ready for work in a while so I'll make a list instead of a long blog post (when I say it won't be long, it ends up being long). You ready?
Yes- I'm a working girl now! :D Okay that sounds totally cheesy so let's redo that: I HAVE A JOB! My career in finance has begun! I am finally part of the working class! I pay taxes! I have bills to pay! (kinda)
I am a responsible adult! You know, all that overwhelming stuff. It's been pretty fun at work, of course. I'm still a trainee after all and if I'm already complaining then I think I have a serious problem. Work is great, my colleagues are great. What's not working? My personal life. For the first couple of weeks I've been feeling so bad that I can't read as much anymore or that I'm too tired when I get home that I can't even post an excerpt on my blog. But lately I've had some thinking time and I was able to change the way I view things. Here's what I told myself (it's crazy how often I have conversations with myself. I feel a little cuckoo):
- Things change. Inasmuch as I want to maintain the same reading and blogging habits, I can't. I have to face the fact that my life is different now. I have an 8-hour job five days a week. It's not like school anymore where I have plenty of chill time in between even if I'm in school from 7am to 7pm. I actually work for 8 hours so naturally, when I get home - I'm dead tired.
I don't look as adorable though. Ha-ha.
- Maximize the weekend. Weekends are precious. I see that now. Those two days are literally the only days I can CHILL. 48 hours reserved for catching up with my shows (or friends... I have friends), reading, and most importantly- BLOGGING.
- STOP PROCRASTINATING. It's easier said than done. I want to blog but I procrastinate then I start feeling bad when I can't post anything. It's not like I have plenty of time to do sh*t anyway so I have no other choice but to get off the bed and BLOG. (over the weekend, that is)
- Don't pressure yourself. A lot of times, I put so much unnecessary pressure on myself when I have zero reason to. I keep forgetting that I started blogging for myself because I love books. I honestly think I procrastinate more when I compare myself to other bloggers. I end up doing a whole lot of planning and not a lot of blogging. So to remedy this, I won't pressure myself. BECAUSE THERE'S NO NEED TO. ;)
Ultimately, I think it all boils down to letting myself adjust to this new phase of my life. I'm too much in a hurry to make it work (Tim Gunn moment! What. Up.) that I actually don't make it work. I need to chill. Seriously.
So I'm calling out to all the working girls (haha it sounds weird, still) out there- got any advice? :D