I've been having insane hormonal imbalance the past few days. I'm angry one minute and then really happy the next. But mostly I've been feeling... blue. I think this is the only time I can use 'blue' to describe how sad I am without laughing. Seriously! 'Blue' is the perfect word to describe how I feel whenever I'm PMS-ing. (If you're a dude, heh, look it up. But I doubt you don't already know because we practically make you targets when we're PMS-ing) And before you call me out on my TMI confessional, let me say this: This is my first blog post this month and things haven't been that great (in terms of blogging) and it's been a while since I felt this inspired to write and I like using and so let me.
This is day 1 of the PMS rant. I haven't noticed how greatly it (the enemy) affects my reading/blogging life until recently. So I decided to blog about it. Because I feel oddly inspired.
First off: HARRY POTTER.
If you're following me on Instagram or Twitter, and you happen to come across my update, you'd know that I just started reading Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. But if you haven't, here it is (you really don't have a choice):
Caption: I'm a Potterhead who hasn't read books 1-3. I KNOW. *rolls eyes* So excited to get started on Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone!
Weeks ago, I posted my list of books that I would read immediately once I clear off my reading schedule. Lately I haven't been feeling like my usual book eater self. I've finally learned to accept the fact that I won't be able to hyper-blog like I used to because work is eating up whatever energy I have during the day. I told myself to take it easy; read what I've been really wanting to read. I then remembered that list I embarrassingly shared to everyone who checks out my blog. Number one on said list is Harry Potter. I thought- WHY NOT? It's not like I'm following a schedule anymore. And I know every single thing that's going to happen so it'll be an easy read.
I was so wrong.
The trouble with reading something I already know is that I'm not as engaged as I am with stories I encounter for the first time. Don't get me wrong- I think the writing is still as great as I remember it from the last four books. But because I know what'll happen next, I don't feel like reading every word of it. I constantly had to stop myself from reading ahead. I just wanted to absorb every word of every page of every chapter. But I couldn't. And it really saddened me! This is Harry Potter. Lots of people say the first three (well, actually most of my Potterhead friends say their favorites are Sorcerer's Stone and Prisoner of Azkaban) are the best in the series. I was silently hating myself for not being so eager to read til the last page. Yes, I was that dramatic. (a saner version of myself is rolling her eyes and walking away)
It's just that I couldn't believe I was having a hard time going through a story that I love. I miss the magic and wonder in the world of Harry Potter. But somehow, I wasn't that into it. Have I outgrown JK Rowling's writing? I'm not used to the third person POV. Could that be it? Or could it be the timing? (the enemy ruins everything) Is it because I've pretty much memorized the plot from the movie?
And more importantly: does this make me less of a Potterhead?