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| This sort of like a topic post except it sounds more like me thinking out loud. Which isn't always pretty. Or organized. This is me blabbing. That's why I'm calling this The Confessional. |
I usually try to start my confessional titles with "I have a confession" but it's not appropriate in this case. I have to get ready for work in a while so I'll make a list instead of a long blog post (when I say it won't be long, it ends up being long). You ready?
Yes- I'm a working girl now! :D Okay that sounds totally cheesy so let's redo that: I HAVE A JOB! My career in finance has begun! I am finally part of the working class! I pay taxes! I have bills to pay! (kinda) I am a responsible adult! You know, all that overwhelming stuff. It's been pretty fun at work, of course. I'm still a trainee after all and if I'm already complaining then I think I have a serious problem. Work is great, my colleagues are great. What's not working? My personal life. For the first couple of weeks I've been feeling so bad that I can't read as much anymore or that I'm too tired when I get home that I can't even post an excerpt on my blog. But lately I've had some thinking time and I was able to change the way I view things. Here's what I told myself (it's crazy how often I have conversations with myself. I feel a little cuckoo):
- Things change. Inasmuch as I want to maintain the same reading and blogging habits, I can't. I have to face the fact that my life is different now. I have an 8-hour job five days a week. It's not like school anymore where I have plenty of chill time in between even if I'm in school from 7am to 7pm. I actually work for 8 hours so naturally, when I get home - I'm dead tired.
I don't look as adorable though. Ha-ha. - Maximize the weekend. Weekends are precious. I see that now. Those two days are literally the only days I can CHILL. 48 hours reserved for catching up with my shows (or friends... I have friends), reading, and most importantly- BLOGGING.
- STOP PROCRASTINATING. It's easier said than done. I want to blog but I procrastinate then I start feeling bad when I can't post anything. It's not like I have plenty of time to do sh*t anyway so I have no other choice but to get off the bed and BLOG. (over the weekend, that is)
- Don't pressure yourself. A lot of times, I put so much unnecessary pressure on myself when I have zero reason to. I keep forgetting that I started blogging for myself because I love books. I honestly think I procrastinate more when I compare myself to other bloggers. I end up doing a whole lot of planning and not a lot of blogging. So to remedy this, I won't pressure myself. BECAUSE THERE'S NO NEED TO. ;)
Ultimately, I think it all boils down to letting myself adjust to this new phase of my life. I'm too much in a hurry to make it work (Tim Gunn moment! What. Up.) that I actually don't make it work. I need to chill. Seriously.
So I'm calling out to all the working girls (haha it sounds weird, still) out there- got any advice? :D
I don't think that it's just the working girls going through this now Sab. I mean, I'm still a student but I can't help feeling that I'm procrastinating way too much. And when school starts, my priorities are juggled. It's good to know your doing well with your job! Keep it up! And good luck with blogging still!
ReplyDeleteI had the same problems when I started a full-time job after having two flexible, part time jobs and then one part time job in the summer. I had all the time in the world, looking back. When I started my full-time career job, I stopped book blogging altogether. I had ZERO time, and when I did - all I wanted to do was relax and chill. I am now in a no-procrastination mode with the two weekly memes I've added. The Sunday Post takes me a looooong time to compile!
ReplyDeleteI recently did a post on this topic (though I find I procrastinate by blogging and get nothing else done, which isn't good either!) - http://confessionsofabookgeek.wordpress.com/2014/05/23/rant-reading-blogging-and-trying-to-have-a-life/
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